Something has gotta give

I honestly don't know what my problem is. I really don't understand why I eat things that are bad for me, don't exercise, and then gain back weight that was so hard to lose. I get so inspired when I watch TBL, read great articles, see others that have lost the same amount of weight as me or more, etc. but I just can't keep it going. I can give myself excuse after excuse to not do it just as much as I can give myself reasons to do it right. I'm really tired of writing these blog posts as i'm sure others are just as tired reading them. I'm up for any suggestions. Perhaps a lobotomy?

I feel better

I dragged out the treadmill and ran after reading a Jillian article about negative thoughts. Instead of turning this all into a negative I decided to think and act positively for the rest of this evening. I am proud of myself for showing some control this afternoon. I'm proud of myself for eating healthy for breakfast and dinner. I'm really proud of myself for running a mile this evening at a fast pace. I finished it in 13:38 minutes. I'm proud of myself most of all for pushing past the negativity, changing my attitude, and going to sleep on a positive note.

Peer Pressure

Peer pressure bit me in the arse today. I brought my lunch today like a good girl. I ate my breakfast and was fully intending to eat my lunch. Then my coworker brought us out leftovers. From The Cheesecake Factory. It was my favorite dish. I ate the damn thing. It doesn't end there. She also brought my favorite dessert. I ate it. Well....not a ton at all. Way, way, waaaaay better than normal but i'm still so grumpy with myself. Why did I give in? Why didn't I just say no. What....the...hell...is....wrong....with....me?

I'm sure my weight will be up because my body hates to metabolize anything more caloric than a carrot. Ugh!

Cupcakes

I fancy myself a darn good baker. I make some pretty killer cupcakes. I haven't been asked in awhile to make any so I haven't really had any baked goods in the house. Well as luck would have it I was just asked to make some and right at the beginning of my goal diet. The house smells of homemade caramel sauce and it's so heavenly. I will be good though and not eat any of the cupcakes or icing. Except the teeeeeeny tiny bit that I have to taste of the icing to make sure it's well mixed. Oh that God saw it fit to give me a fabulous metabolism.....

I had a great day though. Good eating, went out with a friend I haven't seen in a while, got some chores done, and caught up on a few shows. I'm hoping to see that scale continue it's decent. I'm super excited that i'm already in the 180s. I was NOT expecting that. I can see that my no eating past 8pm is working well. I was doing terrible at that. I would eat something in bed while reading. NO GOOD! Alright, gotta get ready to hit the hay. Got a long and early day tomorrow.