And I ran

Ok, I ran 2 miles. I was going to go for 3 but my parents and my nephew surprised us with a visit. It was a great 2 miles though and i'm really proud of myself. I pushed myself hard and burned 480calories. Not too shabby!

Feeling lazy

I'm feeling super lazy today. I haven't done anything bad and I have done a few chores but i'm just not feeling it today. Maybe it's because my week has been super packed. Who knows.....

I need to get in at least 3 miles today so that I can get back on track for my mini marathon training. I just don't feel like doing anything. I have to go get a PPD test placed today for work. I've been putting it off for one reason or another and now I only have a few days to get it placed or I get in trouble.

I know that it's a recurring theme in my life but laziness is such a problem for me. Blah.

Not what I wanted but a victory none the less

I didn't gain any weight during this stressful week even though I haven't gotten in as much exercise as I would like. I wish that I had lost weight since I didn't stress eat like usual but i'm happy with maintaining. It's a process and I know there won't be a loss everyday.

Today I did a whopping 77 push-ups during my workout with Jaime. Couple that with my 227 squats and I so am getting stronger. I'm so incredibly proud of myself for pushing through the pain and negativity that I put myself through. I really feel like I have a fighting chance in this battle against obesity.

Tonight I am making a healthified version of quiche lorraine. I'm super excited!

Stress

Today has been a very stressful day. Dad had his cardiac cath procedure done and it was presented to us as a complete unknown. We had no idea what was going to happen or what they were going to do to him until after it was already done. I was so worried and stressed out the whole time. His procedure went well and they didn't change anything. Dr. Singh just scoped him and said that since things have not gotten worse he didn't want to change anything. He wants to give his stent some time to work and in the mean time get his medications working better. I'm hoping that things improve and that he will see a decrease in the blockage by his next appointment.

Steve had a phone interview today with a company that would pay him more than what he is making now. It would allow us some more freedom and I wouldn't have to work every weekend. He said it didn't go too well though so i'm back to being stressed about it. I'm putting everything in God's hands but as a weak human being i'm finding it hard to not stress.

The positive in all of this is that i'm not stress eating. That has always been a big problem for me so i'm glad that I was able to overcome that today. Seeing all the problems that Dad is facing from a lifetime of poor eating choices is a big motivating factor. It pains me to see him struggle like this. I hope that I can be a good example for them and help them to learn how to eat well too.

Feel the burn

Oh do I ever feel every single on of those 227 squats today. I can also feel all those crunches. I love the feeling though because I know for a fact that I had a great workout. So bring it on sucka! :)

I'm doing much better this week (yes I know i'm only on day 2) than last week. I'm still taking it one day/hour/minute/second at a time. Eventually I won't have to but for now I do and it's working for me. I was way too sore to workout but I was still going to until I got called in to work. I had to scrap it but I did get plenty of walking in a work so I don't feel too bad. I get rest days so i'll just make it today.

Dad called and gave me some bad(ish) news today. He is going to have to have another cardiac procedure tomorrow. Dr. Singh doesn't know if anything needs to be replaced or if he is going to have to do some more invasive procedures until Dad is on the operating table. That scares the bejeezes out of me but I will trust in the Lord that he will intervene and heal Dad. God is good and I have to remember that always.

Tomorrow is another day and another opportunity to improve myself. Now, off to watch some Biggest Loser and then get some rest for a stressful day.

227

That is how many squats I did today in my new building blocks workout with Jaime. I am so immensely proud of myself for how strong i'm getting and for not quitting even though I have wanted to a hundred times. 227!!!!!!!!

Ready, set, go!

I've been struggling. I'm fighting a war against a powerful adversary and the battle has been tipping in it's favor. My enemy? Laziness. It has driven me to eat poorly, not exercise, go out to eat, and tell myself that I "deserve" that ice cream. Mostly though, laziness has caused me to lie to myself and others that I have given a promise to. I promised to be healthy, to be fit, to be strong, to be disciplined in all aspects of my life.

I threw a pity party for myself and posted a "why me" post on facebook. That is when an angel in the form of Nicole reminded me that it isn't the end of the road but another beginning. She reminded me that every single day is filled with choices and moments in which to make a new start. She reminded me that I am in control of my life, choices, and future. ME!!!! She reminded me that I am indeed ONE STRONG CHICKADEE! I'm strong enough to overcome my laziness, self-sabotage, and self-pity. I'm strong enough to be honest about what works for me and what doesn't. I'm strong enough to create a future for Lilly that shapes her into a strong and healthy woman. So thank you Nicole. Thank you for encouraging me through kindness and a good example.

Today I weighed in at 190.8lbs. Never again will I be at that weight but i'm not ashamed. I am who I am and everyone has to start somewhere. I'm a success story and will continue to be. Why? Because i'm one strong chicadee, that's why!